I grew up in Indian Trail, NC. My dad is a pastor, and I had a wonderful stay at home mom. Both parents poured God’s love into my three older brothers and me. At an early age. I fell in love with God, as I began to understand what He had done for me and what He would do in my life.
At 4 years old, I heard the gospel plain and simple. I was a sinner, dirty and broken, BUT God, loved me dearly and gave His son, Jesus, to die for my sins and rise again. He did this so that I could live eternally with Him. At a young age, I made this decision but didn’t grasp the impact it would make for all my years to come.
Through elementary school, I had been homeschooled but began my 6th grade year in a public school in Greensboro. As I felt social pressures, I began having anxiety about grades, and sports teams, about family issues and friendships. I was striving to be perfect. Through this I lost sight of the God who made me unique and in His image. My father realized the shift in my attitude and encouraged me to memorize Isaiah 41:10 “So, do not fear, for I am with you, do not be dismayed for I am your God. I will hold you up with my righteous right hand.” This became my life verse; I said it to myself more times than I can count. I became reliant on God to guide my life and to get me through every hard thing.
I left home in 2014 for UNC Charlotte knowing God was good and His plan was perfect. I was ready to learn everything necessary in order to be the best Children’s Director I could be. That was, until anxiety hit again. Although I knew God was good, the idea that bad things still happened to His people became rampant in my life. That year, my second year of college, I started losing who I was in Him. God used a friend to remind me that God never changes. The God who was good when all seemed right would be good even if bad things happened. Isaiah 41:10 immediately took on new meaning for me. God wasn’t going to change my life to make it easy, and He wasn’t going to fix all of my problems. Most importantly, He wasn’t going to change His good and perfect plan. I realized I hadn’t been giving God my complete trust to do His will in my life. I was limiting God’s abilities to only what I saw as “good” or “faithful.” In reality I was making God my own pocket sized little-g god.
I began to live in the freedom that God has a plan for my life. I can praise Him in every storm and in every celebration because His plan has been and always will be the best plan. In three years, I completed my elementary education degree and continued to see the Lord pull my heart toward Children’s Ministry. Mercy Church became the clear will of God as I interned and then transitioned into the Children’s Associate position. I live in Joy knowing I am in God’s will, following His plan in the good and the bad.